life

i visited one of my best friends this weekend

it was literally one of the best weekends i have had all year

we hung out, eaves dropped on her little brother, worked out, ate lots, got mani and pedi's, watched movies and laughed a whole whole lot.

it was perfect.

we got on the topic of life after college

she is in nursing school and living with her parents after graduating from auburn

we were talking about the transition into the real world and how we were feeling

and let me just tell you we both came to the conclusion it is hard

everything about it is hard

i wish that someone would have told me how it was going to be

but no one did

and who really knows if i would have listened if someone would have given me this insight.

but the past six months has been hard

really hard on me

its been hard on every single relationship i have

its been hard to make new friends in a new city

its been hard adjusting to working 8 to 5

its been hard learning how to adjust to being by yourself a lot

and its just been really weird

i wish i could tell you that it has gotten easier

but it has not

some days are easier than others

but the hard days definitely out number the good days

all i can say is that i am striving for the good days

and i hope contentment comes sooner

allie, my friend i visited, mentioned that she felt the exact same way

and i was shocked that i was not the only weirdo going through this

its very comforting to know that i am not the only one struggling with life after college

and the transition.

if you are still in college, let this be your warning that 'life' iscoming and

if you are out of college and have already dealt with it... did you deal with the loneliness after college and the unknow and the questioning of EVERYTHIHG?

because i am going to be real with you

the real life is intense.

its hard.

and scary.